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Huh? Who is it?
Oh, hey…
Yeah, hang on… Let me get dressed… Just give me a minute…
I um…
Okay, hi.
Yeah, come on in.
No, I don’t know if my roommates are here. I just woke up.
Oh, is it three in the afternoon already?
I can’t believe I slept that late.
Yeah, sorry. I guess I slept through class this morning… But you went, right?
Well, maybe I can get your notes off you, so I won’t have really missed anything.
Come on… Please?…
Thanks. I’ll make it up to you, I swear.
You’ve always been so responsible.
Mhm.
No, I remember. We were supposed to study today after class.
Right.
So, when I didn’t show up to class, you got worried about me and decided to come over here to check on me?
You didn’t have to worry. Look: I’m fine.
I know. It’s not like me to just disappear like that. I should have at least sent a text or something.
Uh huh. It’s my bad. I’m sorry. Are we cool?
Alright. Cool. Now come here and give your best friend a hug.
Mm. You smell nice.
Is it like a new conditioner or something you’re using?
Oh, I see. It’s nice… I like it… Want some coffee? I’m gonna put on a pot.
Huh? A good mood? What makes you think I’m in a good mood?
Okay, so I’m in a good mood. Why not? The sun’s out. It looks like a beautiful day. We’re a couple of young, healthy, care-free college students with freedom in our pockets and a promising future ahead of us. And now I’m going to spend the afternoon hanging out with my best friend since we were little. There’s lots of stuff to smile about.
You think I’m trying to hide something? Something about last night?
Why? What do you think happened last night?
Okay, okay, fine. You’re right. Something big did happen last night.
No, I probably shouldn’t tell you.
I don’t want you to freak out or anything.
No! It’s nothing bad or anything like that… Not too bad, anyway… But it might be, like… Shocking.
I know. We’ve never kept secrets from each other before, but this is like… Really big.
I don’t even know how to start.
Okay. I have an idea. Let’s make it like a game.
Just go along with it, okay? Alright, so, I’ll say a statement, and then if it applies to either one of us, we’ll raise our hands. Got it?
Okay, so… I’m a freshman at Clinton State University…
Yeah, raise your hand.
Good. See? Easy, right?
Alright. Here’s the next one: I’m a girl.
Yeah, I put my hand down, but you kept yours up. I think you’re getting it.
I slept through class today… Now you put your hand down and I put mine up.
That’s right. Now let’s try it a little faster… I know how to swim… I’m a straight-A student… I can’t parallel park a car… I’m still a virgin…
No, I didn’t forget to raise my hand…
Uh huh…
Ow! You don’t have to scream so loud in my ear.
Yeah, last night… Well, I mean, it was technically early this morning, but…
Remember that party I was telling you about… You didn’t want to go…
Yeah, I remember you saying something about how you felt like those kinds of parties were just for hooking up, and you weren’t into it.
I mean… I guess you were right…
No, I know. I said I wasn’t going to go either. But then Vance wanted to go, and he practically dragged me there with him.
He was calling me a pussy! I mean, what else was I supposed to do?
Well, when we got there, it was so loud. There were a ton of people there.
Yeah, I know you don’t do well with crowds. You would have hated it.
They kept playing all this lewd rap music. I’ll spare you from repeating the lyrics… And everyone there was drinking…
No, I didn’t drink. Vance kept trying to get me to do shots with him, but I refused.
Yeah, it’s sad that everyone thinks they have to drink and do drugs to have a good time.
They just end up behaving like stupid idiots and doing dumb stuff.
Yeah. And what if I got caught? I’m not even twenty-one yet. I could like go to jail or something, and then my whole future would be ruined.
Right. So, I wasn’t going to touch the stuff. I stayed strong.
Mhm.
But there was music and dancing and so many girls…
I mean, you should have seen what they were wearing!
Like, the things they had on… I mean, what’s the point of wearing clothes at all when you go out dressed like that?
Well, I saw one girl with a shirt so short… I could actually see her… Boobs…
Like, just the bottom parts.
Right. It’s still too much. I shouldn’t be able to see any parts. Like, have some modesty and cover them up.
Yeah. Like you… You always dress nice… You know, classy and respectable…
I couldn’t even imagine you wearing something like that.
Oh my gosh! What would your parents even say if they saw you like that?
He’d kill me.
Maybe you, too. But definitely me.
Remember when we moved into the dorms?
Yeah, your dad, he took me aside and asked me to look out for you and make sure you didn’t get into any trouble while you were away from home.
He wanted me to keep you safe from all the bad influences of college, and stuff.
There’s obviously enough of that going around.
Well, I mean, we’ve known each other since we were kids. We grew up together and spent so much time around each other’s families. I guess they all just kind of think of me like a protective older brother for you.
No, I know we’re the same age.
Okay, fine. You were born a few months before me.
I don’t mean that I’m actually older than you, just that they see me that way.
Probably because I’m a guy, so I’m supposed to be… Like… The responsible one.
You know, we come from the same place, have the same small-town values…
They’re parents. They worry. That’s their job.
Yeah, well, if you dressed the way the girls at the party dressed, our parents’ brains would have a total meltdown.
It’s definitely not somewhere your dad would want you hanging around. it’s good that you stayed home.
No. And there were other girls there… A bunch of them… They had on these pants that were so tight, it really didn’t leave anything to the imagination.
I mean you could clearly see separate butt cheeks… Like the exact shape.
Uh huh, and in the front, too… They were showing off…
Well… you know what I mean. They were that tight, though.
Like they had no respect for themselves.
I’m sorry. I’m not trying to be scandalous. It’s just what I saw.
No, you’re blushing. Am I embarrassing you? We don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to.
You’re sure you don’t mind?
Okay, thanks. I mean, I feel like you’re really the only one I can talk to about this.
Our parents and everyone back home wouldn’t get it. They’d totally freak out if they found out I was at a party like that.
And that I… I had sex. Right. So, I can’t say anything to them.
I mean, Vance knows because I was with him at the party, but he just thinks all this is normal and…
You know, he actually gave me a high five this morning when I got back home.
Seriously. He was like ‘congrats on finally losing your V-card, buddy. It’s about time.’
Uh huh.
See? You’re like the only one who really gets me. That’s why we’re best friends. I can tell you anything.
Mhm. And I hope you feel the same. Like you can talk to me about anything, too.
Yeah, we’ll always be there for each other, no matter what’s going on. That’s just what friends do.
Oh… You want to hear more about the party?
Well… like I was saying, it was loud and crowded, everyone was drinking…
Except me… Right.
And I was surrounded by all these basically half-naked girls.
They had some games. One of them was called beer pong, where you have to bounce a ball into a plastic cup, and the loser has to drink what’s in the cup.
It’s beer.
No, I didn’t play because I didn’t want to have to drink. But Vance and I watched a couple of girls playing.
One of them was this short little Asian girl, and the other was a blonde.
They were going back and forth, bouncing balls into each other’s cups.
Well, the blonde had on this loose top.
I tried not to look, but they were right there when she bent over to pick up the ball from the floor.
No bra or anything. I could see everything down her shirt.
Not just me. There was a crowd of people watching by this point.
Boys and girls. They were cheering them on.
And then the Asian girl…
Well, I guess they were pretty drunk after playing beer pong for so long, but people told them to keep playing.
I tried to get them to stop, but Vance told me I was being a buzz-killing white-knight, and some of the other guys there agreed with him.
No. I know it’s not how we were brought up, but no one else seemed to have a problem with it. So, I guess, When in Rome… You know?
Not even the girls. They were laughing and like, totally enjoying the attention, flirting, and egging the guys on.
Anyway, the Asian girl had to take a drink, but she spilled it down her front.
She was wearing this thin, light-colored t-shirt, and the beer turned it see-through.
Mhm. Even her… Nipples…
I tried not to stare, but it was really hard to avoid looking.
Uh huh. I was probably the only one who made any effort to avert my eyes. The rest of the guys were hooting and hollering at them like a bunch of animals.
Right. But it didn’t stop there.
No. Instead of quitting, someone suggested raising the stakes of the game.
Yeah, betting… Not for money, though.
Can you guess?
That’s right. Not only did the loser have to drink, but they also had to take off an article of clothing.
Sure, there wasn’t much to take off in the first place, but…
Well, the Asian girl lost the first match. She didn’t even hesitate. She just whipped her shirt off over her head and tossed it on the floor.
I couldn’t believe it. She was just there with her boobs exposed as if she were all alone instead of at a party surrounded by people.
Her boobs? Well, they were kind of small, I guess… Smaller than yours…
Not that I’m looking at your boobs all the time, or anything. I don’t mean it like that.
No, just for comparison. You know, she had a smaller figure than you, so… Smaller boobs. That’s all.
No, I wasn’t ogling her… But I do remember her nipples were dark and really pointy.
Mhm.
Well, then they played again, and the blonde girl lost this time.
Uh huh. The shirt again.
They were bigger than the Asian girl’s.
Yeah, maybe something like your size.
Sorry, I didn’t mean to get all pervy and stare at your chest. I was just trying to make an accurate estimate.
Yeah, I couldn’t believe it either. But they kept playing.
For their pants, yeah.
Well, the Asian girl was actually wearing a skirt, but the blonde girl had on the sort of pants that I was telling you about, before.
It doesn’t matter. Pretty soon they were both down to their underwear… If you can call it that.
The Asian girl had on a purple pair. I mean, I guess they were kind of normal looking… Like the same shape as a swimsuit.
Bikini briefs? Is that what you call them?
I mean, guys have briefs, too, but they don’t really look like that.
Okay. But the only thing was, they were sheer in the front and back.
You could see right through them.
I mean, I thought I was seeing things, but I could actually make out… Hair…
Yeah, black hair down there. It looked like she trimmed it, but it was still pretty obviously there.
But the blonde girl…
She made the Asian girl look absolutely modest in comparison.
Well, there wasn’t really too much to it at all. It was just a bit of pink string around her hips and between her… Butt.
It barely covered anything!
Uh huh.
No. It was weird. She didn’t have any hair down there at all.
Totally bald and smooth, like Reverend Gary’s head.
Absolutely none. I’m sure.
Because she lost the final match to the Asian girl, and had to strip out of even that last little shred of clothing. There was no hair anywhere on her body, except the top of her head.
I mean, I’ve never seen a real girl naked before. I’ve seen pictures of nude women before. You know, lounging around, eating fruit, and frolicking by the sea side, like in those classical paintings, but this was nothing like that.
No, she just stood there, smiling and posing for the crowd. It was like she was actually proud of herself for being completely naked.
But then the Asian girl stripped out of her underwear, too.
I don’t know why. Your guess is as good as mine.
But she went over to the blonde girl and gave her a hug.
Uh huh. They were both totally naked.
Like… Boob to boob.
I know!
I mean, can you even imagine it? Imagine that was you, as naked as the day you were born, in the middle of a crowded party while all these drunk perverted frat bros are practically drooling over your body, pressed against the naked body of another girl.
Not even the slightest bit of shame.
The crowd dared them to kiss each other.
I know. It’s gross, right?
No, I can see how flushed you are. You’re turning red. And you keep fidgeting with your hair and rubbing your neck like you’re feeling bothered by all this.
Listen, if I’m making you too uncomfortable, just say so.
No, I appreciate you listening. I know you’re not used to hearing things like this.
You’re okay for me to go on? You want me to?
Okay. But seriously, stop me if it’s too much for you.
So, there were these two naked girls, and everyone was chanting ‘kiss her, kiss her…’ And then they did.
It wasn’t just a peck on the lips either.
No, they were using tongues and everything. And their hands were just going all over each other.
Mhm. Even their boobs, and their butts, and a few times… Other places…
You can’t guess?
I mean… Touching… Between their legs.
Yeah. But the crowd kept chanting. It changed from ‘kiss her’ to ‘lick her.’
That’s what I thought, too. Lick her what? Her face? Her hand?
Well, the blonde girl leaned against the table, and spread her legs apart. And the Asian girl got down on her knees in front of her.
I never even thought of kissing a girl down there, but that’s what she did.
She was down there for awhile. And the blonde girl seemed like she was loving every second of it.
She was moaning and groaning… You know how you have a first bite of one of Mrs. Lanover’s fresh-baked pies, and she’s such a good cook, you can’t help but go, ‘mmm’ when you taste it because it’s so delicious?
Yeah. It was like that, but like ten times more than that. The greatest pie ever… Like, the sort of pie you can only get in heaven.
But I guess the crowd didn’t want to leave the Asian girl out, so they started a new chant: ‘Sixty-nine, sixty-nine.’
I didn’t know what it meant either, but I think I figured it out pretty quickly.
So you know how a nine is like an upside down six, right?
And you put them together, you get sixty-nine?
Well, they did that… But with their bodies.
Yeah, so the Asian girl, she got up and lay down on the beer pong table, and then the blonde climbed over top of her, but backwards, so that the her face was between the Asian girl’s legs and her… You know… Was in the Asian girl’s face.
That’s right. And then they kissed each other’s private parts.
Yeah, you’re right. There wasn’t anything private about any of it. They were totally out in the open. There were so many people watching, and cheering, and shouting. But they didn’t seem to care about any of that. They just focused on licking each other.
Yeah, they were both making those moaning noises.
It was totally dirty and disgusting.
I did want to leave, but I was… Sort of… stuck… In a way…
I just mean that guys… We can get tempted by things like that… And when parts of us get… Excited… We… I mean, I know we were home-schooled, but didn’t you learn about this sort of stuff from your parents?
Oh, okay, good. Your mom gave you the talk about boys.
Mine, too. My dad, I mean, about sex and stuff.
Well, it was mostly about respecting women, respecting myself, and saving myself as a gift for my future wife. But he also told me that guys can get… Aroused… When they find themselves tempted, and that I shouldn’t be ashamed if it happened, but I should deal with it privately or just wait for it to go away on its own, and not draw attention to it like a sex-pervert.
Yeah, so after watching everything, I’m sorry if this is extremely TMI, but… I was feeling pretty… Um… Excited in a way that would be very obvious if I stood up.
I didn’t mean to. I couldn’t help it. All I could do was just sit there and hope it went down eventually. But everything the girls were doing was having the opposite effect. I just kept getting more and more excited.
I probably shouldn’t be telling you about this.
I know, and I trust you completely. It’s just that, I was supposed to look out for you and instead, I’m filling your mind with all this trash.
Well, that was different. That was girl-parts, and you’ve got the same things they’ve got. But… Should I really be describing… penises to you?
Not just any penis; My penis! I don’t think it’s appropriate to put thoughts about my erection in your head, and make you think about it. We’re friends, and friends shouldn’t think of each other like that.
No.
I mean, it’s obvious that you’re embarrassed for me. You don’t need to pretend. I can see that flush that was in your face has gone all the way down to your chest. You keep rubbing there like you’re about to break out in a rash or something.
You didn’t realize you were doing that?
Okay, but are you sure you want me to go on?
No, I guess you have a point. If I stop, then it’s going to be this big secret, and you’re always going to be curious and wondering, and something like that could come between us…
Resolution? I guess that’s the word for it.
And you swear you’re not going to hold it against me, or think I’m some sort of sex-freak or anything like that?
I don’t know, it’s just weird. I mean, we were both raised to see sex as a sacred bond between a husband and a wife. While on one hand, I’m excited to not be a virgin anymore, there’s also a big part of me that feels like I’ve just betrayed my future partner. As good as it was, I know it was a sin.
Yeah, maybe you’re right. The first step is to come completely clean about it. And there’s no one I trust more than you to come clean with.
I mean it. You’ve always been there for me.
Thanks. You’re a really great friend to just listen while I expose the most base parts of myself to you. I know it can’t be easy for you to hold space for me and for… everything.
So, I was sitting there in the crowd and watching the girls put on their show and freaking out because I didn’t know what to do about being aroused. I looked around and some of the other guys were just as aroused as me.
Mhm. I mean, I didn’t look for long, but I could see that some of them were actually… Touching themselves.
I know. Gross, right? They were just right there, sitting a couple of feet away from me, and… Stroking themselves to these two naked girls.
Through their pants. But yeah, it was pretty obvious.
Some of them even had girlfriends with them, kind of… Helping out… You know?
And the girls were obviously just loving the reaction they were getting. The more they saw that they were turning on the crowd, the crazier they got.
They weren’t just moaning, but they were actually screaming and saying all kinds of stuff.
Really nasty, dirty things.
I’m not sure I’m really comfortable repeating them.
You really want to know?
Okay, just brace yourself, and remember you asked for it.
So, they said stuff like… ‘Stuff your filthy tongue up my slutty little fuck box until I spray my pussy juice down your fucking throat, you dirty little cunt.’
I told you it was bad!
I’m sorry, but I did try to warn you. You insisted.
No, I can’t believe anyone could talk like that… Especially a lady.
Absolutely appalling!
Well, I couldn’t take it anymore. All that sex-stuff going, it was like I was about to get sucked into a big orgy if I didn’t do something about it. I knew I had to get out of there.
Yeah, it was time for plan B. If my erection wasn’t going to go down, then I just needed to take care of it in private, like my dad told me.
Uh huh. I got up.
I mean, I did my best to kind of cover it up, and everyone was so distracted by the girls’ show, they weren’t really paying me much attention.
Even so, I don’t think I’ve ever felt so embarrassed in my whole dang life.
Okay, well, just so you know, it gets even worse from here. So, just… You know… Be prepared.
Yeah, like Reverend Gary says, we don’t drive out our demons by giving them shelter. We’ve got to confront them directly by baring ourselves fearlessly to God and to the people who love us deepest so that we can gain their forgiveness and acceptance.
And that’s how we cleanse ourselves of sin. I know. But it’s never been this hard to be this totally honest before.
No, I guess it isn’t supposed to be easy. But I know it can’t be easy on you either.
Okay, fine. I’ll stop interrupting the story and get on with it.
Right. The sooner it’s out, the sooner I can move on from it. Just promise me, you’ll stay with me until the end.
Thanks.
So, with everyone watching the show, I was able to get away from the crowd without anyone noticing. I had to walk kind of hunched over with my hands in front of me, but no one was paying any attention to me. I went upstairs, where there were fewer people, and eventually found an empty bathroom, so I could relieve myself privately.
Yes, masturbation.
I mean, I know we’re supposed to control our urges, but like… Everyone does it.
Uh huh. Sure.
Oh… I mean I’ve never really thought about you doing it, too.
No, I guess, like if everyone does it, it makes sense that you’re part of everyone. I just…
Yeah. Like I said, friends don’t really think about each other in that way.
I guess we’re going to start thinking about each other like that from now on. I’m sorry. I didn’t want things to change between us, but they are, aren’t they?
You’re okay with them changing?
Yeah, change can be good sometimes.
Uh huh. You’re right. If you think about it, it would be kind of dumb to pretend like neither of us had that side to them. We’re both eighteen, technically adults. Adults have to deal with adult feelings.
Sure. It’s natural, and our nature was created by God. So, we’re both human. We both get tempted by our God-given urges sometimes, and we both masturbate to take care of them. We don’t need to be ashamed to admit it, right?
Okay, so I was in the bathroom, masturbating, attempting to bring myself to climax so I could go back to the party without showing off my obvious arousal.
Sure, that’s a helpful perspective: It was out of necessity, not perversion. Thanks.
Well, I guess I was in such a rush that I forgot to lock the door.
Yeah. I mean, imagine if it was you, and you’re all exposed in your deepest moment of depravity-
Yes, necessary depravity, but all the same – Imagine being caught by a total stranger in such an intimate moment of weakness with yourself at a crowded party.
I froze. I didn’t know what to do.
It was a girl.
Uh huh.
I mean, yeah, I guess you could say she looked cute. I was kind of in too much shock at the moment to really appreciate the way she looked.
She had chestnut hair – Kind of wavy and down to her shoulders.
I don’t remember her eye color, but she had on a tight-fitting little black dress.
Her boobs? I don’t know, maybe somewhere between the Asian girl and the blonde girl.
Yeah, not too big, but not tiny, either.
Well, she froze too. I thought she was going to freak out or something. She didn’t, though. After the shock wore off in a few seconds, she got a kind of look in her eye, and she smiled. She was staring right at me.
No, not my eyes. I mean, at it. I was still holding it in my hand.
Yeah… It was like a cat that had cornered a mouse and was getting ready to devour it.
She said something like ‘looks like you could use some help.’ Something like that.
I don’t know. I guess I said something, but I can’t remember. What I do remember is that she turned around and locked the door like I should have done earlier. Then she moved closer to me. She got right in front of me, put her arms around my neck, and kissed me.
Yeah, like the two girls from earlier… With her tongue and everything.
I mean… I wasn’t expecting it, and I didn’t know what to do, so I just kissed her back.
It felt good.
Mhm.
Remember when we were sixteen and still in high school, and like half the people our families knew were getting married that year, so we kept going to all those weddings?
Do you remember, you were getting so anxious, because at the end of each ceremony, the groom kisses the bride? And you were worried that if you didn’t know how to kiss, you’d embarrass yourself and your husband and everyone would laugh at you, and then he’d hate you, and everything.
I remember you were totally freaked out.
So, for like a week after school, we used to sneak behind the gym and practice kissing for our future weddings, so we could be prepared when the day finally came. We swore we’d never tell anyone about it.
Yeah, until that janitor, Mr. Frazier, caught us and threatened to phone our parents. That’s right.
Well, kissing her wasn’t really like that.
No, I’m sorry. I’m not trying to criticize. It’s just that we were young and had no idea what we were doing. But you’re the only other girl I’ve kissed and the only one I can compare it to.
Yeah, this girl knew what she was doing… I think… And it was different than we thought it was supposed to be.
Well, what we used to do was kind of just mash our faces together, and with her it was… More… I’m not sure how to put it.
I mean… Never mind… It’s stupid.
No. I was just going to say… Like, this is probably totally inappropriate, and I shouldn’t even put it out there, but… I could… show you…
You’re right. It wouldn’t be the first time we kissed.
And it would just be for educational purposes.
Uh huh. Friends helping friends. Nothing more.
Okay, so… Move a little closer… That’s good… Now close your eyes…
Right, so she, uh… Put her hand around the back of my head… Like this… And then she pulled me into her… And…
Mmm…
Yeah. So, how was that?
I know. Better, right?
You want to try it again?
Sure, practice makes perfect. Right.
Mmm… Mmm… Mmm…
Yeah, that was nice.
So, now when you kiss your husband on your wedding day, you can do it right.
Mhm.
Anyway, this girl was kissing me like that for a little while, and it was making me even more aroused. But she was pushing her body so tight against me that my penis was caught between us.
Yeah, I’m a poet, but don’t even know it.
No, there was no way that she didn’t know. I mean, she’d caught me red handed, and it seemed like it was getting even bigger and harder while we were kissing. But she didn’t seem to care. She was kind of moving herself against me, rubbing me with her belly. There was nowhere to hide. And anyway, I’m a little ashamed to admit it, but I felt myself losing control.
Yeah. I knew it was wrong. I knew I should save myself for my future wife, or at least someone that I cared about. I shouldn’t just give my virginity to some total stranger in the bathroom at a frat party, and that I was going against all the values we were brought up with. But, the temptation was too strong, and I couldn’t think rationally anymore… I kind of allowed myself to get carried away.
No, I know. It would be a lot for anyone to resist, but still…
So after awhile, this girl broke off our kiss. Then she got down on her knees on the bathmat. Remember, my penis was exposed and fully hard, and now it was right in front of her face. She put her hands around it first. I mean, no one’s ever put their hands around it but me before, but she did. Then she started to masturbate me.
Well, it wasn’t exactly like when I do it myself.
Mhm. Similar, but different, too.
Her hands were smaller than mine for a start. And I gave up total control to her and just received her pleasure.
Yeah, I was nervous, but it was kind of a good excited kind of nervous.
You think you know what I mean?
Yeah, kind of like the first hill of a roller coaster.
So, then she started to kiss it.
How? Well, first she just kind of brushed her lips on it. Then she started licking around it. Finally, she took it inside her mouth.
They call it a blowjob, but you don’t actually blow on it.
More like sucking and caressing it with her tongue. I have to say it felt amazing, though.
Okay, so… Give me your hand… And now point out your finger… Just one…
Yeah, that’s it. So, it’s kind of like this… Mmm…
What do you mean what’s so special about sticking your finger in my mouth?
Oh… Well, imagine… You know that place between your legs that gets really sensitive and feels so good when you masturbate?
Okay, well imagine all of those nerve endings were transplanted into your finger. Let me do it again.
Mmm…
Do you get it now?
Mhm.
Oh, you shivered. Are you cold?
I can get us a blanket from my bed if you want.
Hold on. I’ll be right back…
Here. We can keep this over you. There you go.
Yeah, I’ll get under here, too. And why don’t you get closer?
Sure. Snuggle up right next to me. And I can put my arm around you like this, and keep you warm… Though your body feels pretty warm to me, already. And you’re still really flushed and your muscles seem kind of tense, too. Are you sure you’re not coming down with something?
Alright. So, this girl with the brown hair at the party… She did a blow job on me in the bathroom… And it was amazing.
Yeah. It only took a couple of minutes for me to achieve climax.
Right inside her mouth.
I mean, I don’t know what most girls do, but she swallowed it all.
I’m not gonna lie. It was pretty sexy.
Right.
No, I guess it wasn’t that long. But she was nice about it.
She just said that it meant that I’d last longer next time.
Yeah. She said we could go back to her place for round two.
Well, I thought that climaxing would have taken care of all my temptations, and it did help my erection to go down… But I was still filled with urges, and my mind still wasn’t back to being rational.
All I could think of was that I wanted to go again with her… That I hadn’t gotten enough.
So, we went back to her room.
Yeah, it was in one of the dorms – You know, Regina Hall?
Right, it’s one of the nicer dorms. She lived in this suite with her roommates, but each person had their own private room.
Yeah, a couple of her roommates were there, watching TV. I didn’t really get a chance to meet them, though, because she took me straight back to her room.
Not much. Just a bed, a closet, a desk, some shelves. It’s really just meant for one person.
Anyway, she told me to lie down on her bed while she put on some music.
I don’t know. Some smooth R&B group.
No, not Boyz II Men, but something like that. Anyway, she started moving with the music… dancing, but in this really slow, sexy way. It was almost hypnotizing.
There was a zipper on the side of her dress, under her arm pit. She pulled it, and slipped the straps off her shoulders, then pushed the dress down to her hips and then totally off… All in time to the music.
Yeah. It’s crazy, right? I mean, before last night, I’d only seen one pair of boobs in my life, and they were my mother’s so they don’t count. But now I’ve seen like three different girls completely naked in a single night.
Mhm.
She did have on panties. More like… What did you call them?… Bikini briefs?
Yeah, like that. They were black, just like her dress, and lacy.
Well, she didn’t have them on for long. After she stepped out of them, she crawled up on the bed, and started kissing me again.
Yeah, moving her body against me, too, just like last time. But we were lying down instead of standing.
I still had my clothes on. I was so caught up in watching her undress, I forgot to take them off.
First she got me to sit up so she could take my shirt off. Then she undid my pants, and pulled them off of my legs.
Huh?
Yeah, I was getting pretty aroused again. But this time I didn’t even care about trying to hide it. Not even when she yanked my underwear down.
Well, we kind of rolled around a little, kissing again, but both of us totally naked this time.
To be honest, I think that was my favorite part of this whole thing. Not the sex, exactly, but feeling her next to me, her skin against mine. Just that physical closeness.
Yeah. Kind of like how you’re cuddled up next to me right now… But even more.
What?
You think we should…
Oh, to help you with your shivers. I see.
No, I noticed you were still uncomfortable. You were kind of squirming, and I can feel you pressing your legs together.
No, I mean, I guess it would be okay as long as we stay under the blanket.
Right. There’s nothing really that wrong about feeling your best friend’s skin against yours. I guess it could be kinda nice, even.
Mhm.
Okay, hang on. Just hold the blanket, while I… And now… Alright. Now it’s your turn.
Yeah. I’ll hold the blanket, and you can just take your clothes off underneath.
I promise I won’t peek. Go ahead.
Uh huh… Well… Okay… Done?
Yeah, come back here and let me put my arm around you again.
Sure. Yeah. I mean, it’s kind of weird having your best friend naked beside you, but… It feels pretty good, too. Not gonna lie.
Good. I’m glad you feel good, too.
I mean, I can’t see you, and you can’t see me, so it’s not like we’re exposing ourselves to each other, or anything.
As long as we keep our hands to ourselves, everything is fine, right?
Right.
Well, like I said, we were just lying together on her bed, kissing. Then she sort of put her hands on my shoulders, and was like pushing me downwards.
I mean, it felt like she was guiding me, so I followed.
I started kissing around her boobs, especially her nipples.
They were really firm, sort of sticking up. I sucked on them a bit and squeezed them with my hands and stuff. But then her hands were on my shoulders, sort of telling me to go lower.
Past her belly button.
Mhm. Her vagina.
She was just like the blonde girl from the party, totally bald down there.
Well, I did have some idea what she wanted, but it was only because I watched the other two girls earlier. Otherwise, I guess I would have been totally clueless.
That’s right, I kissed it.
Like real kisses – like I showed you before. With tongue and everything.
Well, my tongue, at least.
Um… It’s hard to describe. It was kind of sweet, but musky… It’s not really like anything else.
No, it wasn’t unpleasant, just different. Haven’t you…?
I just thought you’d maybe tasted yourself… You know… When you’re… Masturbating.
No. But since we’re being totally honest, I tried it once. But men’s ejaculate is different. It’s got a different flavor and texture and everything.
And after awhile, I just got used to it. Sort of like how you can get used to any flavor after you’ve been eating if for awhile.
I don’t know. It seemed like I was down there for a long time.
I’m not sure. I don’t think she achieved climax. How would I tell? It’s different for girls, isn’t it?
It’s pretty obvious? Well, it wasn’t anything obvious with her.
Yeah, but I mean, it was my first time. I had no idea what I was doing down there. I just kept kissing and licking.
What do you mean? How is that the same?
You were worried about being embarrassed on your wedding day…
On my wedding night?
No, I wasn’t worried about it before, but now that you mention it…
Yeah, I did help you with your kissing anxiety.
And now… You want to do the same for me? What do you mean?
Hey! What are you doing? Why are you grabbing my arm like that?… What?… Oh…
It’s… Warm… And wet…
Uh huh.
Are you sure you want to do this?
I mean, we’ve been friends for so long, and things are really good between us, but we’ve never…
That was just for practice. It didn’t mean anything.
Torturing you? No, I didn’t mean to…
Jealous?…
No, I didn’t think of it that way.
I wasn’t trying to make you jealous, I just…
No, I guess I didn’t consider you might have had feelings…
Because you never gave any indication.
I….
I just thought you were happy as friends, and never really thought of me that way. So, I kind of turned that part of myself off for you. That way we could keep being friends.
Yeah.
You didn’t, though…
And here I was, just going on about this other girl… I don’t even know what her name was. I’m such an idiot!
But all this time… You’ve been…
And everything I’ve been saying… You’ve just been picturing… What if…
Right. What if that was you?
It… It turned you on?
No, I can see that… I mean I can feel it.
Yeah.
Well, how does it feel for you? Do my fingers feel good?
Move them more? Okay, how’s this?
Good.
We could practice kissing again… You know, like before…
Mhm… Mmm… Mmmmm…
Hey, watch it… The blanket…
Oh my gosh! Your boobs, they’re…
No, they’re perfect!
I’m not just saying it. They’re easily the best pair I’ve seen in the last twenty-four hours… Or my whole life.
No, they’re big, but they’re nice and round and soft, and you’ve got beautiful nipples.
Mhm. Can I kiss them?
Yeah. They’re really danged cute.
Uh huh… Mmm… Mmm… Mmm…
How was that?
You’re even more turned on than before?
No, you feel even wetter down there.
What’s that?
You think I should try… Kissing you… Down there.
Sure, like with whatshername. Okay…
I mean, I still don’t really know what I’m supposed to be doing down here, so tell me what you want.
Uh huh… Mmm…. Mmm… okay…
You want me… Higher?
Okay, yeah… So, that’s your clitoris?
Your most sensitive spot… Okay, got it.
And you want me to…
Okay, just like this…
Mhm…
Mmm… Mmm… Mmm…
I love the sounds you’re making. They kind of let me know that I’m doing a good job.
Yeah…
Mmm… Mmm… Mmm…
You…. You taste so good…
Even better than the other girl.
Uh huh…
Mmm… Mmm… Mmm…
You’re?… You’re getting… Mmm… Close for me?… Close to climax…
Okay… Mmm… I won’t change anything… Mmm… I’ll just keep doing what I’m doing… Mmm… Yes… Mmm… Yeah…
You’re… What?… Yes!… Mmm… Ah!… Oh my gosh!… Mmm… Mmm… Yes!… Mmm…
Hmm… Ahh…
You… Did you?…
Mhm, yeah. That was great.
No, it wasn’t like with the other girl. She never did that. But you…
Me?… Yeah… Here… feel for yourself…
Yeah, it’s really hard for you.
Uh huh…
Well, when she was ready, she told me to lie down, and she got on top of me, and…
Oh! Okay… Here we go, then…
The blanket’s on the floor, but that’s fine. I don’ think we need it anymore.
Mmm, no… You feel great.
Really dang great…
It feels… You’re tighter than the other girl.
No. That’s a good thing….
Yeah… You’re making me feel so good.
Mhm….
How does it feel to have me inside you like this?
Yeah… So deep…
All these years, and…
Yeah… We should have done this… Years ago…
You… You want me to touch you again?
Your clitoris?…
Okay… How’s this?
Mmm… Yeah… I like how you’re moving on top of me.
You feel so good….
So… Fucking… Good…
Yeah…
Mhm… I’m getting close…
You too? Okay… Let’s… Let’s try…
Mmm… Mhm… Together… Let’s…
Oh my gosh!…
Oh God!
Oh….
Yes… Let me feel you!
Oh! Yes!
Give it to me!
Yes!… Yes…
Ah…
Ahh…
Hmm…
No, no. Just… Let’s stay like this for a minute.
Yeah. I just want to feel you close to me.
Mhm…
Ah…
Yeah….
So, raise your hand now if you’re still a virgin…
That’s right.
I mean I’ve only been a member for less than a day, but… Welcome to the club.
