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By Jman312
Just a bit of a story of my life with my thoughts added. But of a mix of almost 26 years. But good and bad I could say more if you got quesions.
I was happy little kid. Without a care in the world because I never had to struggle. I knew God. I believe in him. He was always kind to me and I didn’t know much but everyone kept protecting me from the truth of reality. So I said. I need to go on a journey to understand you and myself but I must do it without you. Because I had questions no one would answer. I was 7 or 8 years old. Been with many around 80. Or so people. Guessing a bit high because I forget the real number. Only off by 10 at max. So 70 to 80. At 8. Someone who lives next to me. A girl older by 2 years. While I was having fun and having a imaginary fantasy with myself. In what I thought was a safe place. She was silent and when I went oh hi didn’t see you. She dug her nail into my shoulder and I was hegger her to stop. It was my first time feeling true pain and something else. I looked at her. She enjoyed hurting me. She told me. If you ever tell anyone. I’ll kill you and your family. I believe her and had my first of many panic attacks. To clam down. I snapped. Like nothing was wrong. Lieing to myself first then my mom. Teller her nothing was wrong. 2nd time she came over. I ran. I forgot what she did till I saw her. She caught me and I got slammed into the glass. She didn’t let me get up and I tried. But her left arm pinned my shoulders and her right arm. Grabbed it all. Cock and balls. I’m a grower not a shower. So when not horny. I’m tiny. When I’m growing it’s a hulk haha. Like. From 1/2 inch thumb to 7 inches and 2.5 girth. Best I could measure anyway. I would get horny then try and measure then shine when I went discovery. So never got my true size. She grabbed my balls and cock and twisted and went to crush it. I beg her to stop. She didn’t. She enjoyed my pain. I begged her to stop. Then I asked God to help me then. I just begged for anyone to see me and help me. Even the devil. I ended up going crazy. She would taught me when my sister was around. Just mouthing words with no sound. Saying do it. I’ll kill her. When I was forcing myself not to say anything. Afraid of what she would do. She was stronger then I was. I just. Did all I could. Or I see her alone with my sister and I would run like on fire to make sure. I was around. Because at least. Neither of us would have anything happen if I was around. At least I could do that. Then moved and was still afraid to say anything but then I kept forgetting. I went to crazy my parents but me on meds. Because I went out of control. One day I said I didn’t like the meds. How they wouldn’t let me think straight and I hated how slow I was. Physically and mentally. So I was told ok. Years later. I had a rage of hormones. I didn’t understand because. Who do you ask when it feels awkward to you to ask a friend. Let alone your parents. Then when you had the talk. Btw it was around the time a laker koby Brian had a affair and went to court. Ya I know. 33 now and even then. Should have been told before. By at least 2 or 3 years but had tricked parents. Then years later. Got a gf. We never touched or kissed each other. After 3.5 years I planned my next 30 years of my life with her. From 18 or 19 to 50 or so. Had everything mapped in my head. She cheated on me over the Internet and never meet the guy. Even today she never has and she asked for a break one day. It wasn’t the first. But the 4th break. Being a innocent kid. Then I couldn’t take the silence. After 2 days. So called him. I asked him to hack a website account and get me information. He refused to give me anything but a single page I know was protecting me but I needed the truth. What I got… Ya it was enough for a choice but I wanted the full story myself. What was the page. Him tell her her to be with me because at least I am there. She was debating. 2 days later. I called her and ended my first relationship. She started to cry. I didn’t care because I knew the truth. A few months later. I got with someone who ended up abusing me. Slapping me or worse. Once was laying down. So relaxed. She walked up and ended up. Crub stilling my back. The first hit. Was so well placed. I couldn’t move. Only my arms and was begger her to stop. I couldn’t block a single one and this was after being a 2nd degree black belt. To my shame. Not because I couldn’t defend myself. But because after. At my best guess she dropped kicked me 30 to 50 times. At the end. I couldn’t move my back. She snapped wtf did I do. She tried to pull me into her arms and I was to heavy for her. She was just weak. I was only 180 pounds. But I had to use my arm to get into her lap. Best I could do. Limp was push. It didn’t stop and not even part of what she did those 9 months. Lots in between and mostly just abused and pain. Ended up hating how I felt and myself and ended up killing myself. Then God brought me back. Hating being alive because I felt the same pain over and over. Then. I said fuck. Women.ill try men. Maybe they will be kind. In part they were. They would just be more. About each other vs some women I got with it’s all about them. When I was a kid. I was horny and then
discovered pictures and got omg got worse lol. But I didn’t understand my own body. Even now. Still working on that. Because at first I would finish enjoying the feeling. Then I got worried of being hard near anyone and then got worried later in life. That I couldnt get it up because of how much that mentality kept going through my head. Then at one point. I broke up with my ex. Left completely and everyone else did. So. One day I found my ex’s vibrating butt plug. I got curious. I wondered what it felt like at least as best as I could understand it. Being man vs female. So at least the next person. Would feel even more pleasure the next time. But well I got omg horny. I broke that toy in 1.5 months. So went hmmm let me search the net. Discovered poppers and wanted to try it and got my first vibrating hard plastic dildo. I would just grind it into me and enjoy. Broke after 2 months ugh. Got was still so damn horny. So I ended up. With a 8 inch vibrating twist to turn on dildo. It was blue haha. My ass is so tight. That It doesn’t fall out when inside. One day. I had my new toy. Mostly grinding on it and going up and down. But when stuck in your ass. I mostly just kept pushing it deeper. Till this orgasm hit. I went from. Cowgirl to ready to sucky Chucky and it didn’t still out. It went deeper. I was cumming so hard my ass literally destroyed the dildo. I crushed the metal so hard and fast from my orgasm. I broke it. i crushed the 8 inch vibrating dildo inside my ass. I crushed it so hard. Ithe metel that was made to bring the vibratio up was crashed so fast And hard it was a spring. Sideways. it felt like a gun shot off in my ass and I passed out. I woke up and I hurt and it sucked taking it out of my ass. I could barely take it out on how I was feeling then. I felt weak but felt the side effects of feeling so good. But was ashamed at the same time. Ashamed of not being a man to feel good. Because so many women want you to be a aggressive dominant person. When all I wanted was to love and hold someone. But won’t oiem I miss having that toy in my ass and hate being so broke now. I can’t get one. Or the poppers. Now to today. Got hurt a few years ago In my back. And we’ll. Roller coaster of ki3 and ended up with a sluts ex roommates clothes. At first was clean to sell them. Then got horny. For fems, CDs, trans ect. Then went hmm I wonder. What them clothes feel like. So I put on a few panties. Just went bleh mostly. But went I put the soft ones on. It got me horny and hard again. Not because of what I had on but because I t felt good on My cock. Even while wearing them because tsome of them were soft. and my precum dripping into the panties. It wasn’t enough. I needed to cum still till I couldn’t. Even I still can. I know how to use my cock and still cum. But it will be mostly my prostate vs my balls. My record is around 50 a day for. Few days. I think. But also downs thell. I got 24 boxes of female clothes and mismatched socks and panties. Idk what to do or find time to see and take enough pics for them all to sell. But yet. It kinda made me horny AF. When I do to show them off to sell them. Maybe cum on them like a slut. Wish I had a toy right now and pops. And a friend. Because. I do want to try anal my on virgin ass hit a friend. I don’t want to be raped. Because I might not be able to stop because of how damaged I am I want to enjoy it. I want to know what a cock feels cumming inside me and more then that. Like fucking a woman and being fucked in my ass. Or being fucked and someone sucking me off feels liie. Also turns me on being mostly straight haha that. Maybe I’ll find someone to buy the clothes or. Set of the. And I can just be a slut draining on the. Or in them the. Get off on you using them and whatways they will be used. Makes me hot and embarrassed. So many mixed emotions. So this is a bit of myself. Sorry if I didn’t say something correctly. Just telling you my story.
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By Jman312
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